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Name: Amy
Birthday: 7/16/1981
Gender: Female
Interests: Well, I'm a big geek so I'm into RPGs, LOTR, fantasy books and games, web design, computers and other geeky things. I wish I could live in some magical world with Dragons and wizards, but I'm stuck here with you jerks, so I do what I can to escape through movies and games. I love art and music and all things beautiful and moving. I am a follower of Jesus and believe that eventually I'll get to leave this stupid planet for a better place...maybe I'll see you there.
Expertise: Computers and windows-based OS and applications. I know everything about LOTR, and can quote movies with the best of 'em. I have many skills....some too powerful to explain...someday, when I take over, you'll see. And I can fly.
Occupation: Supervisory
Industry: Computers (Internet)
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
4/14/2006
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| Every now and then, I miss myself. Do you know what I mean? Like somewhere you left and you don't really know where you went. All you know is that you're not you, or your a different person than you expected to be. I'm not saying it's a bad thing, but I do sometimes wonder how I turned into the woman I am now. Some things about the current me are an improvement, while others are not. Sometimes I feel like I need a vacation from myself---like I want to visit the previous me and see if I like it better...I dunno. I don't really know what's missing either...my idealism I guess. Maybe if I were honest, I would say my faith isn't what it should be or once was, and that changes you. It also is a huge part of who you are. Maybe that's what I miss about myself. I haven't lost my faith...don't get me wrong. I irrevocably believe with my whole heart that God lives and loves me and that Jesus' life is true and he died for me. I could never not believe that. It's not a question of my beliefs having suffered, maybe just my actual living of it. If my life isn't affected by what I believe, then my faith has suffered. It's no one's fault but mine. I guess I have that God-shaped hole I've been trying to fill with work and other people and entertainment. I've become of the world instead of in it. I don't like that. So I guess I'm asking for your prayers as I meet and reunite with my former self and my faith. It's hard to remember it on the day to day. I believe I still try to show others Christ in my life daily, but I could try harder and walk with him more. | | |
| Yay! My cousin Krista finally had her baby yesterday! A baby boy named Jacob Xavier Ewert, the first of his generation of grandkids. I hear he is cute, but I haven't seen him yet. Oddly enough, my cousin Cecelia (on my mom's side; Kirsta is on my dad's side) ALSO had a baby boy yesterday. So, I'm a first cousin once removed on both sides, on the same day! I thought that was kind of strange and wonderful. So now everybody is going to be asking when I'm next. Well, since I'm not currently pregnant and thus will not be giving birth before the year is out, my answer would be sometime next year. | | |
| ***token blog entry*** I must say, I'm not too keen on the whole blogging thing, as you may well note being that I do not regularly pen my thoughts on here. It's not that I don't delight in airing my opinion as much as some of you, I think it's just your garden variety laziness. I guess I regard many of my thoughts as not being worthy of the effort it takes to write them. If anyone even reads my post, what's to say they will care what I have to say? Or do we just blog to get our thoughts out there into the void of cyberspace to combat that creeping feeling of insignificance...we must immortalize our inane incoherent ramblings on the web. Desperate for someone to agree or take note. Well I guess I think any thought worth having is private and you all don't get to snoop on the inner workings of my mind. All you get is psychobabble and a plethora of fancy-sounding words when I feel like spamming your inbox. | | |
| Happy Anniversary to me! Today is my and Curtis's 3rd wedding anniversary! So far so good....we are still happily married. So far marriage is exactly what I thought it would be like. I don't always so or say what I know I should or what's best, but we do just fine and we're improving. I must say, I think our relationship gets better every year and I'm going to do my best to keep it that way; think how good it'll be in 50 years if we make sure it gets better every year! Anyway, I'm happy today and I have loved being married to Curtis for the last 3 years; looking forward to 70 more :) | | |
| Remember a post I had a while back entitled "I know...wah wah." regarding an individual who worked for me that I dislike because she is a psycho who lives to make everyone around her miserable? The one that fights me on everything instead of doing her job like a good little lacky? The one that was hoping would reap what she sowed and I would get to see her Karma come back on her? Well I FIRED her today! Allow me a small indulgence.....YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!! I don't personally have anything against her, but professionally, you just can't work with her. I have tried everything. I am so glad I no longer have her as a stressor in my daily life. So judge me all you want for being happy, but she had it coming; she chose to be fired by not correcting the behaviour she was fired for after multiple discussions, and she understands why we did it. So YAY! I can finally relax and begin to enjoy my job again..... | | |
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